Three major things going on right now:

1. I’m under A LOT of stress at work right now. I work for a group of companies, and I do the graphic design, web design and marketing for three of the companies. Plus, I’m the tech support and do a bunch of other almost admin-ish stuff for one of the larger companies. Every so often it gets to be too much for me, when everyone wants stuff all at the exact same time. I can’t do all of this on my own, I have one girl coming in to the office once a week to help out, but that isn’t nearly enough. It’s not fair to me, because I’m under constant stress and am snapping at people, and am in regularly tears, and eat way too much chocolate due to the stress. It’s not fair to any of the companies, because none of them are getting the best of what they deserve for their businesses.

2. This pressure lead to an awesome panic attack and awesome disgustingly ugly thoughts all last night. Couldn’t sleep until about 1 because of said ugly thoughts (and considering I was up at 5am that morning due to a trade show, I should’ve been asleep a LONG time before then). Basically, I need to monitor myself over the next little while and see if these ugly thoughts continue. If they do, I may need to consider finding a therapist or talking to my doctor to increase my anti-depressants. (Full disclosure here: yes, I’m on them for my anxiety and depression. Mostly the anxiety, but I do deal with depression. Have been on meds for it for years. Will probably be for the rest of my life. It’s frustrating, but allows me to function like a normal human being without being too terrified to deal with people on a day-to-day basis.)

3. I’m moving in November. Haven’t officially announced it here yet… but there you go. I’ll miss this place, but omg cannot deal with bats randomly appearing in my bedroom in the middle of the night. Plus it’s gotten way too small, and I don’t have enough room for new bookcases, and all my shelves are double stacked, which I hate. So I really need to take some time to get my arse in gear and get around to packing.

So yeah. I think I need to take a break. Will be posting reviews whenever I finish a book, as I still like that process, and it helps me to really think through the book, but I’m going to be taking a break from everything else blog-related, including leaving comments on other peoples blogs, and any weekly dealies that I do here. I just really need to take some time to adjust and get back to being sane.